
I don't even know where to start this post. I am filled with so many emotions right now. We have been so blessed and I thank my Heavenly Father every day for what he has blessed me with. We are now at the point in our pregnancy that my water broke when I was pregnanct with Lexie. The point that changed so many things in our lives. I have been watching for this week to come. I have been nervous and very anxious. Every day and week that goes by from here on out in this pregnancy (without delivering a baby until Feb.) will be a big sigh of relief. My doctor says that everything is going good and that he doesn't expect me to go through what I went through last time. It has helped to have a few distractions so I am not thinking about my pregnancy. Although the distractions are ones we don't wish for, we are growing and learning from them. So, once again, I thank my Heavenly Father every day for the things he has blessed me with. I feel trials are a blessing. I know it is hard getting through them and yes, I wonder sometimes why Heavenly Father is doing this to me, but that's also when I think, I need to talk to my Heavenly Father and get his help and feel his comfort. Which I have indeed felt. I have had to travel to Salt Lake several times by myself in the last month. I have felt quite lonely and wished that Jim and the girls were with me. As that thought has arrived I have felt that little kick or squirm in my belly that reminds me I'm not alone. That little spirit inside of me is here to comfort me and be with me at this time when I can't be with Jim and the girls. And what a comfort it has been.
Going to Salt Lake has been one of the distractions I was talking about. My mom is back in the hospital and is scheduled to have surgery the day before Thanksgiving. She has retained so much water that they are trying to get it drained off before the surgery. She is doing well. I guess this is her way of getting us all together for Thanksgiving. Just kidding... we love our mom and know that there will be plenty of leftover turkey for us somewhere.
Another distraction we are still experiencing is the job. We still haven 't found a job. I know many of you know what that is like.... the stress and worry, so I will just leave it at that.
Our third distraction came yesterday morning when we found out that one of Jim's good friends had passed away. It's been a numbing experience and kinda shook us up a little. As Jim said, you never know how you are going to react to a situation like this. You can expect grandparents to die, but to have someone so young pass on, it's kind of hard to take. "We know we will see you again Joey. Thanks for being such a good friend to Jim. Our prayers are with Kate and all your family. We will always cherish the times we went to the rodeo with you guys and how you would buy cotton candy just for our girls. We love you!
So, now to start a new day and see what surprises await us........ I think I might go buy a turkey today!